Why do people always say that I "have a good command of the English language" or "magaling mag-English" when they've only heard me speak it once or twice their entire lives?
Being made to be one of the frontliners--what's that you ask, well, a frontliner is someone who gets shot first when things go horribly, seriously wrong, hence the name-- for the upcoming ADClash gives me the heebie jeebies. It's flattering that these people entrusted me this important task on being one of the voices for everybody, and this might just be the thing to help me get over my crippling fear of public speaking. But that is the very same thing that I hate the most about it, for the defense and presentation wouldn't happen in front of a panel of judges consisting of maybe 5 or 6 big shots. Oh, no, we're too flashy for that! Instead this will happen in front of the entire Advertising student body plus a few more curious people who have absolutely no idea of what's happening.
Did I mention that it would also be documented? I'm talking videos and pictures and if possible, holograms!
Well, if you hate it so much why don't you just quit? You're a big fan of the No-one-can-make-me-do-anything-I-don't-wanna-do movement so quit! I can't. There we're three people before me who were forced into it as well but they didn't say anything. Not a pip not even a "what the fuck!"And then me who even underwent a voting process had the nerve to be a diva and say hell no. I can't. I just have to deal with it, suck it up.
Yep, I already accepted the fact that come ADClash I will be sweating under uncomfortable clothes in front of hundreds of kids trying not to sound stupid.
But still this is all ridiculous! Just as ridiculous as the ridiculousness that was going on in my head while the whole ridiculous voting process was happening ridiculously.
"Well, I have nothing to worry. There's only two more slots left and there are, what, eight, nine ten people to choose from. What are the odds of me being one of the two?"
"Okay, so the fourth one is Angelique..."
"Crap! And what a landslide fail too. Man, so all the theories of probability or whatever doesn't really apply to me. Great!"
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